we were getting up at 8:30 am yesterday so that we could get ready and leave. i woke up at 5:30. i just couldn't sleep anymore. lol. so i got up and puttered around, grabbed some breakfast and actually managed to decide on an outfit without having an aneurysm. lol.
we left shortly before 9. stopped at walmart for food and we were off, blasting david's album all the way there and singing at the top of our lungs. \o/
got to valpo university easily enuf bc we don't live all that far away and all of use knew where it was. then we drove around on the campus (that we didn't realise was quite that big) trying to find the harre union building. we actually managed to find it (of course in the very last bit of campus we hadn't driven thru) so yay us. that was around 11. got inside and there was already a decent line. attempted to not hyperventilate or squeal really loudly over the fact that i was actually in the line! thankfully the people who go to see dave are not psycho like the people that go to see some stuff, so there was no crushing in the line etc. which was nice. they didn't even growl when one of us left to go to the bathroom and got back in line with our friends. i actually recognised renaberena when she walked past me so i said hi and introduced myself. we were keeping an eye out if anybody was looking for tickets since we had 2 extra but nobody ever came around where we were. poo. also i totally did squeal when i noticed that the tickets said 'sold out'. you go bb! i love that. there was this batch of 13yo in front of us from like a bday party and we soo wanted to kill them. they were taking up way too much space with all their bags and crap, dancing around and being soooo annoying. i think they were the only bad part about the line tho.. so i guess that's not that bad. turned out tho that since it was 'sibling weekend' there was a group of students siblings that actually got to go in before all of us that had been waiting in line, which was so much bullshit. but what can you do. surprisingly there was no riot when they went in first and the crowd actually did adhere to their little string lines as we were herded in slowly.
that room was so small! i was like omgomgomg we're going to be sooo close! *superflailyface* it was like one of those little conference rooms at a holiday inn. no lie. and we ended up not being very far from the stage (not like you could really be all that far tho) and we had a great view. unfortunately there was one really tall guy in an orange shirt that was totally like head all in the way, but he ended up being right between dave and neal's mic stand so we could still see pretty well. altho the little blonde girl next to me was totally talking about beaming her cell at his head. lol. (i told her i approved this plan. XDD) i was really kind of losing it way before anybody came out over the fact that the room was so small. i saw mcr at the house of blue in chicago and thought that was kind of small (awesome!) but this was reaaaaallly small. <3_<3
so i had heard nothing but good things from everybody about ryan star (the opener) so i was pretty stoked to hear him. i'd actually been following him on twitter for a couple weeks already. but when he came out and just started singing he completely blew me and the besties away. no lie. his voice is just amazing and the raw passion and energy is like woah. i was in love with his musik before he finished the first song. totally. there is just something so... his voice is like broken glass in your soul.. but in the most beautifull way. you can just feel every raw edge, every nerve, every emotion in the words and the musik. and he's just all over the stage throwing himself into the musik and daring you to not love him. it's awesome bc i heard a couple people around us bitching that there was an opening act but by the time he was done the whole crowd was loving him. you go ryan! i know i was there to see dave but i really didn't want ryan to stop singing. there was just so much power in his voice and it doesn't sound like anything that's on the radio right now. his voice is almost like david bowie + neil diamond + billy joel (when you listen to 'songs from the eye of the elephant, which we did on the way home, you can really hear that more with him and just the piano). the last song he did was called 'back of your car' and holy christ it was just... woah. it was the sex. no lie. by the time he finished i wanted to fuck like everything in the room. lol. (more on ryan later)
unfortunately between him and dave fearnottheflame got sick from the water they passed out being way too cold on her stomach with not quite enuf food in it and she had to leave. she ended up getting sick, so it's a good thing she did leave then, but it really sucked having to watch without her. apparently she watched from by the doors and some cougars let her get closer in. i guess she had a pretty good view and a fab view of neallll. so yay for that.
of course after he went off the stage there was dave fucking cook and the bouh. *dies* they came out to this old as song 'if you leave me now' which made me lolol like forever. they were really sooo close i could not even breathe. have to say that they all look even better than they do in their pictures. ~hardon. really tho they looked amazing. dave's skin really is that fucking perfect. and his smile is even more heart-exploding in real life. and his laugh... oh my heart. i cannot even. nealll is really that bamf but he looks way smaller in person and how much do i love that his hair is getting all long and shaggy. andyyy is even hotter live and actually bigger than he looks in pics. all of them were just.. wow. and listening to them live right there in front of me singing and playing their hearts out was nothing short of a religious experience for me. not even kidding. i was like one of those cartoon characters with hearts in their eyes and sparkles all around their head the whole time.
set list: heroes, mr. sensitive, lotm, delaration, kotn, breathe tonight, hunger strike, LO, barbasol
heroes is soo much more epic hearing it live. i loved it anyway but wow. there is just sooo much energy and power behind him when he sings.. and you can really feel it.
mr. sensitive has this realy sexy edge when he does it. you can kind of hear it on the album but not enuf to prepare you for it live. and he really.. i cannot even. how can one minute you're smiling and being the cutest thing ever like 'oh how cool is it that people came to see me' and the next minute he's all rock god sexness 'i fucking own this room'?!?! how does he do that?! idek but ooohhh he does!
life on the moon.. this song.. live.. omg. you can really feel what he means about it being about the last year and all the madness and confusion and there's one line where he turned and looked at neal just like holy. fuck.
declaration. love. it's so much more powerfull than you think it is when you hear it live. just.. amazing. you really can feel the energy of it being his real declaration about what he wants and his dream and just...
kiss oon the neck. *dies* yes please. holy god. hottt like woah. and listening to him sing it knowing that he wrote it with neal and.. and.. at one point when he says 'just a kiss on the neck' he touches his neck and why did that make me die? but ohhhh it did. i swear i spent soo much time squealing and screaming at this show. :o
breathe tonight. yay! fearnottheflame had been hoping for this one so i was totally happy when they played it for her. i mean i love the song obv. and god he just has soo much gravel in his voice and soo much sex when he sings. jezus.
hunger strike. thank you god i was praying for this soo hard. ANDYYYYYYYYY. my life. guh. hearing andy sing live was just.. i mean obv i wanted to hear dave but i knew dave was doing every song so i was praying for them to do hunger strike so i could really hear andy and <333333 so. much. happyface.
light on was awesome. i know some people don't really like it but i love it. and when he has the crowd sing for him.. his face... so much love.
then... encore.. bar.ba.sol. *ded* kyle on the drums with this light thingies is soooo cool and i could feel every beat thru the floor. (i've been really wanting to play drums for a while now actually but this just made the want so much worse) fuck me. barbasol. that man is like fucking the whole audience thru the microphone. no. lie. so much raw passion in that song.
this was the most amazing show. (i confess still second to mcr doing the black parade, but you would have to understand what that concert and that album meant to me and the besties) it was incredible. i can't even fully express what it felt like to be there in the room with this man who i've been loving and following and dreaming for for so long and then he's really there. and he's really just as fantastik as i think he is.. i just.. it was amazing. and it was a high that i could not be brought down from yesterday and all last night.. (and my frenz are too much awesomesauce for making that happen for me!!! <333)
now unfortunately we didn't get to meet the guys bc we got run off from outside so we went for foodz bc we were fucking starving (and starbucks of course). so ~sadface over that. i heard via twitter that some people did end up meeting them and not even gonna pretend that i don't hate you. D=<
but ryan was out in the hallway right after the show and we found fearnottheflame
so yayz! and she was okay again. yayz! we bought his album and had the band and ryan sign it for us. the band was not gettiing enuf luv. wtf people? they were really great and soo totaly friendly! they climbed across the table to take pics with people and were so chatty, especially artie. he was all 'yeah join the mailing list and the next time we come around come and see us. we'll hang out and get some pizza.' lol. you're great artie but be careful. we're the kinda girls that will show up with pizza. XDD finally got to ryan (no easy feat!) and he signed out cd 'To The OT3' which is made of so. much. awesome. and he was soo nice and really friendly and i told him i was going to blog about him and he's all 'well i get google alerts so i will see your blog' and i'm all omg srsly? *dies* (so if you're reading this ryan THE OT3 LOVESSS YOU!!!) we took a picture with him and he totally group hugged us. then he chatted with us some more and then was shaking the besties hands but i had moved out of the way of someone else and totally looked around for me to give me a high five! <33
the band:
me and fearnottheflame with the band
we listened all the way back home and it was just like we were lost in it. it's just him and the piano for basically the whole thing and it's very raw. there's really no production on it. he recorded it in his living room according to the jacket and it's just the most raw, emotional versions of the songs. it's so amazing and powerful. the words just grab you and he just grabs you with his voice and does not let you go for the whole album. he said he's got a new one coming out in like may and i cannot wait for that. i will definitely be watching for him to come back around this way. definitely. (and oh yes artie we will be hanging out for pizza!)
when we got back home we decided to go shopping! lol. (yeah, such girls are we!) and found some really cute stuff. i've been fighting with my closet for months bc there have been a lot of changes in my life and in myself and so many of the really cute things i've got i just don't wear anymore. my style has been so lost. i wear jeans and tshirts all the time and then give myself shit for not really 'getting dressed' and just wearing what's comfy. now we're at fashion bug and i can't find a thing that i like. i'm helping the besties pick stuff out for them but can't find a thing for myself and then talalkhemiyst comes up with this really cute hoodie. that just shook something loose i think. i started picking out a couple more hoodies and a handful of really cute shirts that i would not normally pick out at all. when i got to trying stuff on i was dying. the shirts i got made me totally look like a 15yo boy. but i totally loved them! they were just awesome and i was so comfortable in them and love loved the way they looked on me! so all this time i've been eating myself up about wearing the jeans and the tshirts all the time.. turns out that's actually my style now. go figure. who knew that the year i turned 30 i would be getting a makeover as a teenage boy. lol. i love it. (besties also look waaaaay too cute in what they got. fearnottheflame
then we went home and watched cartoons all night. lolol.
all in all.. it was a really awesome day. really awesome. :DDDDD
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